My name is Me and I have a problem...

So I've been wasting time doing two things:

1) Reading the "Damn, I didn't get in!" thread on the Poets & Writers message board. I started reading it to keep myself grounded and preparing myself for inevitable rejections. I've read all 47 pages a few times. I don't know what's up with that but I vow to stop. I get it. Everyone doesn't get in everywhere. I need to cut this out.

2) Reading the "I'm In!" thread on Poets & Writers. I read this to get all excited about this process that is quickly becoming mentally draining to me. So I'm on my second time through this lengthy thread and vowing to quit this addiction too.

Here you have my admission that I have a problem. I guess I'm feeling like it's possible to actually prepare to go through a life-changing process such as the MFA application process so I'm doing ridiculous things in the name of it. I'm stopping.

So yeah, I would think that just reading this, my own blog, would be enough to remind me of the possibility of rejection and acceptance. That's what this blog has been all about! I'm an idiot.

Yeah so, my apps will be all done this week as soon as I get my check and can pay the fees. I've got final exams, papers, and short stories to write over the next 2 weeks and then I've got a glorious cross-country drive to make...alone.

Onward.

(I had the strongest desire to end this post with "onward bitches!" I have no idea where that came from lol)

I Submit: GRE Scores

YAY! I finally just bit the bullet and submitted my GRE scores tonight. So the big push to finish my applications over Thanksgiving weekend has successfully begun!

Sending out the transcripts and score reports was really the easy part. My writing sample is done so now I need to make packets for each school. Which I will do...now.

Opinions expressed at 3:14 am are those of a sleepless MFA applicant and do not necessarily reflect the position of this blog's author.

So I just googled myself on a whim and came across this comment on the blog of the journal that published one of my pieces:

"I just wanted to say how much I liked both Rapture, by (ME!!!)…….(for its length and complexity and effective way of dealing about race and childhood …..and..."

Thanks wonderful person who just made my sleepless night. Cyber kisses and best wishes to you.

*All rhymes are unintentional at this hour and should not reflect upon my poetic talent*

Pardon the legal disclaimers. Prior to finding this comment I was researching law schools...just in case I suck. lol

Renegade Reference Writer

I'm mailing 2 out of 3 sets of recommendation letters tomorrow. My last recommender is the renegade. I should have known when she asked me when's the latest she could return them to me. Did I ever ask her when's the latest I could return an assignment to her? LOL Like, "I know you said this is the due date but really, what's the latest I can actually turn this bad boy in?"

I've gifted the 2 recommenders who've completed their letters. I wonder if word getting back to her about the gifts will make her get a move on so she can get her thoughtful gift. To gift her now before she finishes the letters would seem like bribery. Maybe I should gift her now.

GRE scores

So I got my official scores in the mail. Let me just say that I hated that test more than anything in the world. The last I have to deal with regarding it is paying $20 a pop to send out the scores to schools. I'm thinking about starting a campaign against MFA applicants having to take the GRE. Seriously thinking about it. The sad thing is I plan on going for a PhD in the future which means I could be required to take the GRE Lit Subject test. At any rate:

Analytical Essay score: 4 out of 6.

All the test proved to me is that I'm not as smart as I thought I was. Did I need to know that? Maybe. Regardless, I know it now lol.

So this made me laugh until I cried today:

MFA App Update

It's coming along.

I submitted all of my transcripts from the 2 schools I attended undergrad. Nice chunk of change too. I'm mad at the schools that wanted 2 copies of official transcripts. They should repay me by accepting me and giving me a fellowship.

I'm waiting on my GRE scores, then those will go out too.

I have to fill out and pay for online apps. Yes, I am only working to support my application habit.

2 out of 3 recommenders will have my letters done by Monday.

My writing sample is finished.

I need to write up a personal statement.

I need to come up with a teaching philosophy for some TA apps.

I'd love to be able to use Thanksgiving weekend to finish everything up and that's looking like a possibility. I am a highly disorganized person but this is going so well! Could be the 2 years of research and preparation. It's going to feel so good to finish the apps and know that I've done my part. That's what I love about anything--knowing I did what I could do and the rest is up to someone else. Well, that's a little unsettling but yeah...whatever lol. We'll see how I sound around February when I'm waiting for responses. My stomach just turned.

GRE Results

Blah...

V: 540
Q: 620

Essays are pending.

On another note...